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Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Standing In Lines


Random update: Currently craving this. Deal with it.
It's about 11:00 a.m. and I'm stuck in KU's library with nothing better to do than attemtp to get some work done/entertain myself with their beyond crippled internet connection. I am so bored right now that I decided I should take this pent-up frustration I have and blog. To add insult to injury, I get to blog about my disdain for KU from the university itself. At this point, it's little victories like this that help me get through each day...Well that and diet coke but that's less to do with my boredom and more to do with my caffiene addiction. *Cue eye twitch*
When I made my blog, I had originally intended to use it to spread a message of sorts, but now after almost three months since I started it I've lost track of what the message was meant to be. I am in the midst of something of an identity crisis at the moment, and it's frustrating trying to distinguish the inner root of my problem from the apparent root, which would seemingly be KU. I say this because I never wanted this blog to be a viral dedication to my life, a digital diary if you will. I wanted to stir up controvery and create social change, a legacy I would leave behind once I got all the credits I need to transfer to Ireland for medical school....I had plans. 
These days, I find myself in something of a dilemma. I am able to see a future for myself that extends beyond next month, but day-to-day I have no idea what to do with myself. Whether it's the lack of interest in my subjects, the dullness of KU or the sad reality that their library has not a single work of fiction, I don't know. All I know is that I'm somewhat lost these days.
In other news, Scope TV was under attack a few days ago, and I'm interested to see how things play out and what story the media will come up with to explain away this little "incident".


Killing time in this punk-ass library,

S.

PS - Let me know in the comments below how you've been feeling these days and let's toast to our united disillusionment.

2 comments:

  1. KU 3rd year medical studentOctober 19, 2010 at 10:38 AM

    My body repelled me from the univ almost everyday for two years; i wanted to FLEE but stayed for the major

    And from a third year KU medical student to another, let me tell you this:

    It gets better.

    It did for me this year. Once you get into clinical modules, its a burst of fresh air, and if you wudv told me this two years ago while I was still a freshman, I wouldn't have expected that I would allow myself to breath it and ACCEPT the fact that I AM actually... A Kuwait University medical student (AAaah was hard to type :P)

    It will get better. :)

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  2. Dear whoever wrote the comment above,

    I thank you from the deepest, most pure place in my heart. I hate to admit it, but medical school intimidates me. Your lovely message has made me feel light-years better.

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