Monday, July 18, 2011


Reality Check: Most of the people that enter your life won't.

When I was a young child in Sweden, I remember that Sundays were relatively dull. In North America, Sundays were set aside for Christians, and so most of the shops and libraries would be closed. While things were similar in Sweden, the truth is that save for a few holidays, the Swedes just aren't all that religious. I'm going off on a tangent here, but what I mean to say is that Sunday was the day most people would do laundry and nurse their red wine hangovers. It was a quiet and calm, if not a bit depressing, day.

After I'd read all I could read, finished all my homework and played outside, I would watch these amazing television shows that would air specifically on Sundays. As a child growing up in the late Nineties and early 2000s, I was fairly sheltered. The resources I had access to was vast thanks to libraries, but it wasn't immediate and in-your-face. However, I digress; back to the topic at hand. Now, these shows were so much fun to watch. Everyone featured was energetic, attractive and full of life. They were amusing, and endearing. The commitment they showed their craft was truly inspiring. I would be entertained for hours on end, and Sunday would slip by unnoticed, leaving room for another exciting week of school and life to take it's place. 
Fast forward a few years, and in set cultural preconceptions, the bitter truth and the Internet.

What did I discover? 

Those shows that held me captive every Sunday morning and made me laugh and smile were nothing more than cheesy and insincere infomercials. The people featured in them weren't happy; they were tacky and ridiculous. The products were bizarre, the deals a rip-off and the hosts and guests paid actors.

This is what growing up does to you. It strips away the magic and wonder from everything, forcing you to see the world for what it is: a disgusting and cruel place. The harder you try, the more you realize there's no point in trying. There's simply no winning. Everyone opposes you, and those who don't often remain silent, which is just as bad (if not worse) than the former. You put all this (imaginary?) pressure on yourself trying to be a better person, trying to convince those around you to do the same and yet it's a futile effort. A lost war, if you will. The apathetic remain that way, the ignorant loud, and the masses misinformed. You quickly realize you're wasting your life trying to make the world a better place, if only in the tiniest way possible, but you can't even do that. You wake up one day and realize that you have been alive, without living. You give up, and move on.  

That, ladies and gentleman, is how you grow to be jaded.


  1. So sad, but so true. Growing up I thought everything was possible. And nowadays, I'm finding it really difficult to make the effort to go to work on time. Doctrine of Meh and Bleh and Oh friggen Well.

  2. your a bag of fun today :>
    life is about balancing the un-even.its the struggle that makes the end result worth it

    the sweet poems of a tormented lover
    the dedication and valor of a disabled person
    ventures, adventures and the journey to the unknown :)

  3. Light - Part of me doesn't want to give up, thinking she has what it takes to break the pattern... but I don't know anymore.

    Rubber Man - I'm little miss sunshine, remember? There's no balance in Kuwait. Anytime you try to point out the flaws and suggest ways to improve, they all unite and tear you apart. I'm over it.

  4. no one wants to hear any flaws, they all think that they live in a perfect society when in fact its far from it. corruption, nepotism and greed is spreading like wildfire.

    I sort of feel the same way you feel however, I haven't given up yet. I still think there is hope, somewhere...

  5. It would be great if there was any hope out there, but as long as people remain silent, I highly doubt it will make any difference.